Monthly Archives: January 2013

Unmentionable


Skull_Candy_Girl_by_chase_n9ne

I don’t want the responsibility of satisfying everybody.
So excuse me if I failed you already.

I don’t want to help the emotions that bind me to do as I wish.I don’t want to hide if I don’t have to in moments that make me feel alive and steady.

And maybe this obsession is heavy? Maybe it’s meddling and wrong?
Maybe it’s my sing along? Because I need a little hope in my empty pockets and heart.

I want something extra to look forward to than training hard and never making a start.
And this feels a lot like if I’d allowed myself I’d fall in love like what?

-Pennington©

Deeply



rainbow

I’m unsure how to deal.

Do I reach to the brown hoarse liquor to drown out these feelings?  Emotions what a thing to be cursed with if you create your bed within it.  Pain can be collective once you allow it to seep inside your nerves, surrounded by the powder of your bones.  You look for a way out, but it’s trapped in a switch that doesn’t sleep.  The trigger listens on in for your fears and it claws its line of attack through your slumber.  The world stops yet the anxiety heightens until there’s multiple responses and reactions that force its hand for you to cry, to long in anger, to be somewhere remote but at the same time to linger in the center where excessive melancholy leads to the haul and aphrodisiac of sex.

To feel too deeply is a curse.

-Pennington©