It’s easy to put someone on a pedestal when I know nothing about them.
I imagine all these renowned blends of hot weekends and being the best of friends.
I like you because I know nothing of you.
I like you because in the moment I’m willing to play a fool.
I like you because I’m not emotionally invested.
I like you because I’m restless and totally tempted.
But once I get to know you I start looking for a way out.
I turn my back on you like I would any boy scout.
I start to zero in on excuses that creep in my head.
I auto-suggest and suggest until you’re unwise and dead.
I doubletalk yet act as if all my intentions are good.
I ask the lord to forgive me because I’m often misunderstood.
I start to pick on your flaws like a bad student.
I will say you need improvement until you lose it.
I will even make you rethink your favorite drink.
While I run hot and cold like an ambiguous sink.
And the thing is, there’s a big dark sea –
How in tarnishing the image of you, I tarnished the image you once had of me.
-Pennington